Suicidal Thoughts with a Chronic Illness

I want to start this off by saying this; you never know what is going on in the life of someone from young to old that may cause them to take their life. Please never judge a book by its cover. My heart goes out to any and everyone who has lost someone due to suicide. Let’s take the time to listen and really hear them and understand them because not one single person is perfect. #showlove

Living with a chronic illness is rough it takes a toll on your body, mind, and spirit. All you want to do is get better and live a normal life. It’s hard when people look at you and decide for themselves that your not sick because they can not see it. And once you hit a flare up and lose so much weight they diagnose you as being an addict or if you gain to much weight from steroids. We keep smiles on our faces to mask our pain but in the inside we hurt.

I remember driving along the highway a few times and thinking to myself, I should just drive onto the other side of the highway to just end it all. I was so tired of being in pain and having so many problems, I felt there was no reason to live if I couldn’t enjoy life. When you are in pain you don’t think about the people around you, sometimes you can’t your mind is tired and weary. Depression, anxiety, and pain weighs you down and kills your hope in life.Some days you cry and some days you don’t have any tears to cry. Chronic pain is and will never be easy to deal with, and we will all have our days, hang in there.

Suicidal thoughts come and go during a time when you are deeply unhappy with the situation you are in. Don’t be afraid to talk to someone, do something that makes you smile, most importantly try not to be alone. Even though during this time it may seem like you are all by yourself; remember you are not. God is always with you, to the ends of the earth.

Matthew 28:20

Always, Shawna

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